When we first researched into the feeder fetish I personally felt disturbed. It confused me as to how becoming hideously overweight and putting your health at risk could be in any way pleasurable or desirable, as Coultate and Davies state, ” excess body weight can lead to all sorts of health problems and life expectancy may be considerably reduced” (1994, p29). The health risks of being overweight are obvious to everyone and an important topic taught about in school. There is no longer an excuse of ignorance in a world when the risks are made clear in every walk of life, so are these risks to the body less important than the fetish? We all have different relationships with food and may know someone who has been affected by an eating disorder. It is a big topic of discussion as it is so central to life.
Personally, I enjoy food. I love going out for meals in restaurants with my boyfriend, friends and family as it is a great place to socialise whilst enjoying delicious food. I have never suffered with an eating disorder and have been lucky to maintain a healthy weight throughout my life. As a typical teenage girl I was always conscious of how I looked and tried to maintain a healthy figure and this continues to the present day. I will never be 100% happy with my figure; I am a perfectionist in every aspect of my life so my body is no exception. However I am starting to feel more comfortable in my skin now I have settled into a healthy size 10. I feel like this is my natural, ideal size and wouldn’t want to be any bigger or smaller, (although maybe slightly more toned!).
Thinking about the performance and what I will have to go through if I am chosen as the consumer is slightly daunting. Although I love food, I often go through stages where I do not feel the desire to eat large amounts, often I do not want to eat at all. During the run up to performances and deadlines it has been particularly stressful and when I feel overcome with stress, my hunger levels drop dramatically. If I am stressed on the day of performance how will this affect my ability to eat and how long will I last before I cannot stomach any more?
Works Cited
Coultate, Tom and Davies, Jill (1994) Food: The definitive guide Cambridge: The Royal Society of Chemistry